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Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Weird, and ever so slightly disconcerting.

That's the only way I can think to describe it. That feeling I got after the empty library had filled up and we'd all been there for eight hours or so, the sense that something about this all was so odd:
the brilliant young people sitting and sitting and sitting for hours on end, maybe eating, maybe studying instead, just poring over books. No social interactions, except for the guilty pleasure visit to Facebook. Cramming their heads... Us cramming our heads, actually, with knowledge until we'd lost all sense of excitement at the intake of new information.
What was the point? Does this even help? Well, um, yes. Yes I suppose it does. Good marks and all that. But it was just so strange to see rows upon rows of students filling themselves up with book-knowledge - it was as if they were all lined up just so, positioned so the feeder tubes could pour in information, and they all hoped it would stay in there long enough to allow them to succeed in life, even if they forgot everything right after the exam.
I know this all sounds normal - this is university Christina. That's what we do with ourselves.

Yes yes, okay. I'll do it too.

It's just that, at the end of the day, I get the sense that a little bit of the interestingness and will to do something with myself has been sucked out of me. But that's okay right? Exams will be over soon.

All I can say is that I hope there's a very good motivation behind all of this.... A very good point to it indeed.


It was empty at the start. Kind of pretty and hopeful actually!


Knowledge regurgitation FTW.


Thursday, April 12, 2012

Cherubim Hymn

This is one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard.
Listen and be at peace.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Une pause

Elle est perdue dans ses espoirs
Ses rêves -
irréels parfois, mais parfois
peut-être plus réels
possibles
proches...
qu'elle peut deviner.
Mais encore... peut-être que
ça n'est plus qu'une espérance.